Meet My Dogs

It’s no secret I love animals. They show up alot in my Instagram stories and other social media and I have an entire second Instagram devoted to my five horses. But today I thought I’d introduce you to my four dogs.

First, there’s Cisco, a six year old chihuahua. He’s really my daughter’s dog but when she’s at school he keeps me company while I work. Weighing a tiny seven pounds he still somehow manages to rule the dog pack.

Next is Moppet. He’s about seven years old. We don’t know for sure because he’s a rescue. I found him on the street and his fur was so overgrown he looked like a filthy old mop, hence the name Moppet. He had Matt’s under his eyes the size of my thumbs, the poor guy. But now he lives with us and is very loved.

Next up is Tank. He’s about two years old and also a rescue (actually all of them are rescues). He came to live with us last year after the second of our two senior dogs passed away just a few mo ths after the last one had. We were all pretty shellshocked with grief and I thought bringing him home from our friends unofficial dog rescue just for a night or two might cheer us up. He never ended up going back to my friend’s. We cant imagine our family without him now.

Last is our newest addition, Luna. She’s a husky, who-knows-what mix with, we suspect, a touch of wolf. I stumbled across Luna sitting in a Rescue’s window last Fathers Day and it was pretty much love at first sight. Luna very strongly resembles my beloved and much missed Ella, a lab/coyote mix I had for 16 years and who I was extremely bonded to. The year and a half after she died before Luna came was devastating. I’m pretty sure Luna is Ella reincarnated for many more reasons than just the physical resemblance. It’s made all the difference to me.

So that’s my pack. All four of them adored and probably spoiled rotten. I work from home so spend the majority of my day without any human company (which is probably why my social media is so important to me) and my little crew here keep me from feeling alone.

Till next time, Misfits



Tarot Bella

Most of you know, or can at least guess, that I’n very intuitive and believe strongly in the worlds of magic, Universal energy, and the old ways.

So I was thrilled when the lovely tarot reader, Kerry at offered to pull my cards and do a reading for me. That said, I’d never had a reading long distance before and boy was this long distance, she’s in England! So I was definitely hesitant about how this was going to work.

Turns out my worries were unfounded because I was impressed.

Right off the bat the first thing my reading said was that I am clairsentient. How she knew this I have no idea because we hadn’t spoken of it. Clairsentience is not one of the more commonly discussed psychic gifts. Clairvoyant is the norm, or Telepathic or even Sensitive. But clairsentient, the ability to feel the dead, is a pretty random word to pull out of one’s hat. I was suitably taken aback.

The reading went on to discuss my immediate future, which apparently was ruled by cup cards and would be full of expanding career opportunities (my newly redesigned main Instagram account perhaps? Hmmm….).

There was a section given to my spirit guide. And another to my actual card spread. Which when it boiled all down told me that the inner turmoil I’ve been feeling lately had very strong roots in a subtle feeling of disconnect in my social media. It’s good to know the universe backs me up in my decision to make some changes!

And all of it was presented beautifully with Halloween graphics, lovely fonts and black and white photos.

Kerry herself is the tarot reader for UK Cosmopolitan magazine and UK newspaper, The Sun. Clearly the woman has some talent.

She has her own Etsy shop as well where you can get your own readings.

And to top it all off she’s just the sweetest, most humble person. Really there’s just nothing not to like here.

Check her out and tell her I sent you.

Till next time, Misfits!


What’s Making Me Crazy

So I’m sitting here with my morning coffee and still ruminating on the issue that inspired me to revamp this blog on the first place. And what’s that exactly, you say? Well I’ll tell you: why don’t I have one massive social media empire and how can I get one?

Unlike alot of social media mavens I didn’t grow up in the world of it. When I was a youngster starting out you had to make an impression and build an empire in person. Modeling when I was young was trolling the streets of Manhattan trying desperately to get into the doors of an agency and from there going on meeting after meeting we called Go-C’s in an attempt to get booked.

Jacqueline Collen Tarrolly
Some Old Mainstream Modeling

I was one of the lucky ones, I was scouted in Colorado by a Parisian agent and sent to France so I got to skip the first part. When I retired at 29, the internet was just starting to get a hold on the world. When I got back into modeling several years ago, social media made it very possible for me to do the type of work I’d always longed to do. And I’ve done well with it.

Jacqueline Marie Mourning
Jacqueline Marie Mourning

But there was something missing. I’m also deeply into horses and have several. And that side of me is driven strongly by fantasy and medieval roots and nature. I felt like my horses and their world had a lot to offer too. So I started an acct for them.


And then there’s the actual way I make my living, my Vintage store. It needed social media too.

Toadstool Farm Vintage

So now I have three main social media ‘worlds’. All do fine on their own, especially the 1st and main one, Jacqueline Marie Mourning, but none of them are really knocking it out of the park.

And I keep thinking it’s because I can’t focus on just one and really give it all I have. I’m pulled back and forth. But I also truly love all three worlds, they are all an enormous part of me. I don’t want to stop sharing them because then I’d feel like I was hiding a huge part of who I was from you all.

What I long for is something like Jonna Jinton has. Or Black Friday for my darker souls. Where everything they do is so cohesive and clear. There are lots of smaller accounts doing it too, Tathariel is one. But the point is that they seem to have their whole world gelled together and it’s all flows.

I cannot for the life of me figure out how to do that. How does one combine a dark soul who’s favorite color is black and who lives for Halloween and the Addams Family, with another who loves rolling in the mud with her horses and climbing trees and all things green and orange and flowers? It would be so jarring. How would such a world flow together? I can’t see it.

Oh people tell me not to care, just be yourself. True. But Myself also is highly creative and artistic and I ADORE creating beautiful IG feeds that take one on a journey. In fact my main IG is my most chaotic and it makes me crazy.

So I sit here and ponder and write this blog post that is getting way too long because there are so many thoughts running through my head. This blog is the start. I can truly bring it all together here at least. It remains to be seen what other ideas will occur to me. But in the meantime, I’d love to hear your thoughts and opinions, or ideas. I’d love ideas. Brainstorming sometimes sparks the most incredible solutions for me!

Till next time, Misfits!

Safe Journeys!