What’s Making Me Crazy

So I’m sitting here with my morning coffee and still ruminating on the issue that inspired me to revamp this blog on the first place. And what’s that exactly, you say? Well I’ll tell you: why don’t I have one massive social media empire and how can I get one?

Unlike alot of social media mavens I didn’t grow up in the world of it. When I was a youngster starting out you had to make an impression and build an empire in person. Modeling when I was young was trolling the streets of Manhattan trying desperately to get into the doors of an agency and from there going on meeting after meeting we called Go-C’s in an attempt to get booked.

Jacqueline Collen Tarrolly
Some Old Mainstream Modeling

I was one of the lucky ones, I was scouted in Colorado by a Parisian agent and sent to France so I got to skip the first part. When I retired at 29, the internet was just starting to get a hold on the world. When I got back into modeling several years ago, social media made it very possible for me to do the type of work I’d always longed to do. And I’ve done well with it.

Jacqueline Marie Mourning
Jacqueline Marie Mourning

But there was something missing. I’m also deeply into horses and have several. And that side of me is driven strongly by fantasy and medieval roots and nature. I felt like my horses and their world had a lot to offer too. So I started an acct for them.


And then there’s the actual way I make my living, my Vintage store. It needed social media too.

Toadstool Farm Vintage

So now I have three main social media ‘worlds’. All do fine on their own, especially the 1st and main one, Jacqueline Marie Mourning, but none of them are really knocking it out of the park.

And I keep thinking it’s because I can’t focus on just one and really give it all I have. I’m pulled back and forth. But I also truly love all three worlds, they are all an enormous part of me. I don’t want to stop sharing them because then I’d feel like I was hiding a huge part of who I was from you all.

What I long for is something like Jonna Jinton has. Or Black Friday for my darker souls. Where everything they do is so cohesive and clear. There are lots of smaller accounts doing it too, Tathariel is one. But the point is that they seem to have their whole world gelled together and it’s all flows.

I cannot for the life of me figure out how to do that. How does one combine a dark soul who’s favorite color is black and who lives for Halloween and the Addams Family, with another who loves rolling in the mud with her horses and climbing trees and all things green and orange and flowers? It would be so jarring. How would such a world flow together? I can’t see it.

Oh people tell me not to care, just be yourself. True. But Myself also is highly creative and artistic and I ADORE creating beautiful IG feeds that take one on a journey. In fact my main IG is my most chaotic and it makes me crazy.

So I sit here and ponder and write this blog post that is getting way too long because there are so many thoughts running through my head. This blog is the start. I can truly bring it all together here at least. It remains to be seen what other ideas will occur to me. But in the meantime, I’d love to hear your thoughts and opinions, or ideas. I’d love ideas. Brainstorming sometimes sparks the most incredible solutions for me!

Till next time, Misfits!

Safe Journeys!